Sun Nov 7, 2004

So close, yet not close enough

Yesterday, I finished mom’s sleeve. (Shouts and accolades to me.) However I am two rows and a little bit of length away from matching the other one. I’m going to frog the cap, add two rows, and reknit. Annoying? Yes. Really, really cool that I’m almost done? Yes. I am very anxious for mom to start wearing her sweater while it’s still sweater season. Here’s hoping it fits.

Next on the needles? That would be Mari’s poncho, for which I’m going to be heavily altering a pattern. The poncho pattern out of Vogue’s Quick Knits, if you’re curious. My yarn won’t make gauge, and she wants it shorter, so I’ve got some tinkering to do. It will be a very quick project. Hallelujah! Next, I should probably finish Nate’s birthday present, which is another quick project. After that, we’ll revisit this post, and reevaluate. (Having just been there, I’m looking forward to it. I’ll be able to check off a few things! I’m also reminded of the satchel for my brother-in-law. That’s moving up on the list. Then there’s the Harry Potter sweaters, which didn’t even MAKE the list).

In other news….

I am checking into the hospital later today. I’m having steroids injected into my spine. Sound like fun? The problem is that while I know this procedure is relatively common, and I know that nothing bad is likely to happen to me, I have issues with needles. Completely unfounded, but issues just the same. I am not afraid of needles. They gross me out. The entire idea is pretty much horrifying.

When my doctor initially recommended the procedure, I froze up and could do nothing but stupidly stare at him. I couldn’t speak. Thinking that it would be helpful, he picked up a portion of an artificial spine, along with his pen, and showed me where the needle would be entering and how far in it would go. Would you like to know what happened next? My head began to swim, I heard a rushing in my ears, and wondered as I was rapidly loosing all physical control of my body, whether I was more likely to pass out or puke. Neither occurred, thankfully, but it took a couple weeks for me to get it together enough to call the nurse and ask the questions that I should have asked at my appointment. She scheduled me for another visit.

A little background… I pass out when getting IV’s. I am usually offered smelling salts when having my blood drawn. I am highly annoyed when medical staff thinks that drawing me into a conversation will somehow “take my mind off it” and make me OK. It doesn’t. I hate it.

I HAVE, however, learned something. My last IV was, as usual, not going well. And, par the course, the second or third medical professional was making their attempt at penetrating my veins. Some nurse who had obviously recently descended from heaven offered me oxygen. Have any of you ever had the pleasure of breathing pure oxygen when it wasn’t, you know, a scene from ER or something? Let me tell you….. if I am hoping for anything, it is that whoever is prepping me for surgery will give me oxygen when I request it. I was in a happy place during that last IV. Well, OK, I wasn’t. BUT, it was waaaaaay better with oxygen. That stuff’s amazing.

For those of you that pray, I would request your prayers on my behalf. For those of you that can send positive energy over great distances, it would be much appreciated. And for the rest of you, well wishes whether expressed, or simply held privately, would be fabulous.

Thanks, and I’m quite confident that however nasty today’s experience is going to be, I’ll still be here tomorrow.

11 Responses to “So close, yet not close enough”

  1. Megan Says:

    yikes–I am so sorry about the whole injection thing. If it helps, I recently had an epidural and it really wasnt that bad. I think it was better than IV’s because I couldn’t see what was going on and they numbed my back fairly well before doing anything with large pointy objects.

    I’ll be thinking about you!

    Megan

  2. LisaPrit Says:

    Good luck today.
    You will be in my thoughts.

    LisaPrit

  3. Suzy Says:

    Sending prayers up for you Laura. I have similar issues with needles, I’m actually feeling a bit anxious just thinking about what you have to deal with today…Whew that passed 🙂

    Hugs and prayers,
    Suzy

  4. Janell Says:

    Hang in there Laura. I don’t envy you at all. Let’s hope that it will be worth it. You are in my good wish thought bucket!

  5. Jenny Says:

    Hi Laura!! Good thoughts coming your way! My cousin gets those kind of shots periodically, and she lives to tell the tale!
    However, my middle son is much like you with the same kind of reactions to needles and blood. He thought he “grew out of it” and tried to donate blood a few months ago…..he still faints and feels weak in those situations. Ah yes! Snorting oxygen feels marvelous!

  6. Donna Says:

    I am sending positive vibes to you, Laura. Good luck today. I know all will go well for you. You are in my thoughts.

  7. Amy Lu Says:

    I’ll be thinking of you, and sending prayers your way.

    I was afraid of needles too until I went to RN school and learned how to poke others. Now I can watch (actually I prefer to) when its my turn. That is kind of an expensive and time-consuming way to overcome something though,(grin).

    Take care!!

  8. FYRKRKR Says:

    OOOOOOOOhhhhhh, La, La! I am sending many prayers, tons of positive bright energy and loads of well wishes your way! Tell them today that you want the stuff that makes you semi-unconscious during the procedure, you wake up right after and don’t remember a thing. It’s awesome. I will be home today, so if you, Nate or the girls need anything, just shout.

    I didn’t know you were that squirmish about needles! …I will admit, that while I love you dearly, I am dastardly plotting out all my horrendous needle stories (I have tons) to share with you…spider paybacks…sorry, Dear, but I’ll try to wait an appropriate amount of time…

  9. jody Says:

    sending you big happy thoughts that you’ll get thru today with flying colors. after all, you have lots of knitting to get back to 😉

  10. Jenny Says:

    Ha! I see someone made a reference to the “stuff” that makes you forget a procedure…..I had that once, and I was seriously worried about exactly WHAT I would forget!! I finally came right out and asked the nurses if I would recognize my husband when he came to pick me up, and they went into hysterics, and told me that they couldn’t help me with that……………………….

  11. Laura Says:

    Thank you all so much. It truly means a lot.

    As for YOU, Gayle…. I wouldn’t if I were you! First of all, talking about needles and almost any medical procedure actually causes me physical pain, don’t be cruel. PLUS, I wasn’t exaggerating about the passing out thing. It doesn’t take much. Additionally, you ain’t seen nothin’ yet sister, if you want to swap stories. You lay on the needle stories, and I’ll let loose with every detailed spider encounter I ever have. I’ve seen many a large, hairy wolf spider recently, if you’re interested, let me know. :-).

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