Wed Mar 16, 2005

I’m weird

I started out quite cranky. I wrote a completely grumpy, snide post. I read it a number of times, then realized that the writing of said post must have been therapy in itself because I no longer felt many of the emotions expressed. Well, at least not as strong. Now I’m feeling that old, familiar attitude of resignation returning. I’m being cryptic, I know. Sorry. Because typing out a full on tantrum seems to have done me such good, I decided to save it, (for my benefit), and if you want to read it (not necessary, but if you are curious), it’s linked at the bottom of my new, much happier post. Keep in mind that the same information will be presented, but in a different way.

So I got to knit yesterday. For quite some time, actually, and it was very nice. I started out on the Vogue Cable Cardi (the official name, I’ve decided), and after realizing that I was stopping every three minutes to examine my stitches and re-measure gauge, I decided that I needed to chill. So I picked up the shawl I’ve started, using my first spun yarn.

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I am now significantly further along that the picture shows. About four times as much. It is weird. It is crazy. I’m hoping that it’ll all work out in the end, but I don’t really care. I’m not knitting it to be functional. I’m knitting it as a keepsake of my first attempts at spinning, and a tangible record of my progress and improvement.

Of course, now that I’m thinking about it, I mean, right this second it is occurring to me… that maybe I’ll frog it and start knitting blanket squares. I’ve wanted to knit a blanket for a long time now, and this might be a cool way to do it. Hmmmmm. What do you all think? Shawl or blanket? In either case, there will be multiple colors.

If I do the shawl, I’ll knit the main body in my pound of heathered teal roving, then I’ll go and find some roving in a complimentary, contrasting color to spin and knit an attached edge. If I do a blanket, I’ll finish up the teal roving, then go and find a color (or a few) to also spin and knit into squares, thus giving myself ample opportunity to experiment with spinning different weights, and maybe even trying out navajo plying. The blanket idea is very raw, so I’m open to suggestions either way. But I’d love to have a blanket.

I’m feeling much better now. You really don’t have to read my tantrum. I’m just not ready to let it go yet.

8 Responses to “I’m weird”

  1. Lisa Says:

    we all need to have a good tantrum once in a while. luckily for you, you chose a good outlet for it. 🙂 no need for damage control. i should follow your example…

  2. Vampy Says:

    Oh boy, I’ve done that a few times 🙂 Although I’m usually silly enough to post my tantrums BEFORE proof-reading… my friends think I’m a nutter.
    Your handspun looks so nice! I’m sure that however you decide to knit it up that it’ll be fabulous!

  3. FYRKRKR Says:

    I vote for the shawl – and here’s why – you actually wear shawls beautifully and frequently and lots of people will be able to see it, admire it, and enjoy it’s beauty and your hard work and what it means to you. A blanket will also be put to good use and displayed lovely & lovingly in your home, but not nearly as meany people will be able to enjoy it, whilst Abner and the 3 Little Angels have a better chance at helping something happen to it becuse it is out. Besides, we are going to knit the reversible cable afghan, aren’t we???

    Big HUG!!!
    Gayle

  4. Kristel Says:

    Aww, Laura, with the things you have been forced to go through you really are entitled to a tantrum every now and then. You are usually so very good at expressing yourself positively, and yet you have the trauma to process not to speak of the physical aches.

    It’s all too easy to overdo the being a nice and good person thingy, and forget about letting negative feelings out every now and then too. Believe me, I know from experience!

  5. Katie Says:

    Hi Laura,
    I haven’t read the tantrum yet, but I’m sure it was therapeutic and well worth it for you. 🙂 I think a blanket would be a wonderful thing… just imagine curling up with it in the wintertime with a cup of hot cocoa or your knitting… thinking about the lovely time you spent spinning the wool and knitting it up… just the thought makes me feel all cozy!

  6. FYRKRKR Says:

    HAPPY SAINT PATRICKS DAY!
    I forgot to say that earlier!
    Love, Gayle

  7. Grandma June Says:

    I just received the beautiful socks and put them on – they fit nicely. Now I’ll trim my toe nails so they won’t pull them. Also the lovely beaded key chain adornment is already on my key chain. You make such “neat” things. Thanks.
    Love from Proud Grandma

  8. Dani Says:

    What’s the use in having a blog if you can’t throw a big, fat, public tantrum? I’m glad you feel a little better.

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